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1. What did you do in 2018 that you'd never done before?

Wrote a bunch of novels.

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I don't really do that. I might this year for a change, and that's "be better at studying French."

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?


4. Did anyone close to you die?

Not really, but a former abuser did die, and I was entirely happy about it.

5. What countries did you visit?

Just the US and Canada.

6. What would you like to have in 2019 that you lacked in 2018?

Possible things only, I suppose... um... that leaves out a sane government... hm.

More musical inspiration, I think. And motivation.

7. What date from 2018 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

The whole fucking year, or should I say the decade it took, or the year. Holy shit.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

On my own: The Armourer and the Living Weapon. I mean, it got fan art. That was new.

As one of many snowflakes in the avalanche: your new Democratic representative from the 8th District of Washington State, Kim Schrier.

I'm also fairly pleased with the amount of old stuff I ditched. More to do on that in 2019.

9. What was your biggest failure?

Not yet diamond in comp. Or plat, for that matter.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Eh, I got the flu. Or just a bad cold. Not sure which.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Probably the GT1030 silent (fanless) graphics card, or possibly the monitors I'm using with that card. Honourable mention to the giant utensil storage tray I bought. Sure, laugh, but I'm telling you, a well-organised drawer makes for a much happier kitchen.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

George, our cat.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

Every Republican who didn't resign and/or actively, publicly fight the neofascist white supremacist movement. Which means almost (but not quite) every Republican.

14. Where did most of your money go?

Aside from bills, see the Washington State 8th District.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

I fixed and/or rebuilt a lot of things. That's always fun. And I wrote and co-wrote some novels.

16. What song will always remind you of 2018?

I can't really think of one. I've been away from music for most of the last two years. I think that's part of the ongoing reaction to the current realities; fiction writing turned on, in a big way; music mostly turned off. But... maybe Mélovin's "Under the Ladder."

17. Compared to this time last year, are you
i. happier or sadder?

Probably about the same.

ii. thinner or fatter?

Much stronger. Much more muscle. About the same weight, just ... more of it's muscle.

iii. richer or poorer?

About the same.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

Anti-fascist rallies/protests/actions. I missed a couple. For reasons, but still.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

It's been overwhelming at times. Can't afford that.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

(Presumably, how did I, in this context.)

I didn't. It's not my holiday. I rather hate Christmas, honestly; I didn't, until the fundamentalists and protofascists at Fox News ginned up the "war on Christmas" horseshit, but years of that made me really hate it. Anna and I did the usual National Jews and Pagans Go To the Movies Day, and saw Ralph Breaks the Internet. It's pretty good. First 20 minutes or so spends too much time re-covering old ground from the first movie - I think because it's been a while - but then the actual film itself is pretty good.

21. Did you fall in love in 2018?


22. How many one night stands?


23. What was your favourite TV programme?

Either the new Doctor Who - isn't it nice to have actual Doctor Who back on television again? - or She-Ra. Seriously, She-Ra is kind of awesome.

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

Nah, the protofascists and fundamentalists have been trying to kill me my whole life. I'm used to it.

25. What was the best book you read?

Emily Wilson's new translation of The Odyssey. Get it, read it, seriously. Nothing else I read this year is close, though I also quite liked Shirley Jackson's We Have Always Lived in the Castle, from 1962, which I'd not read before.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Somehow I had missed paying much attention to Florence and the Machine, and thanks to an online friend, I have now addressed that deficiency. Maybe also Sunflower Bean too.

27. What did you want and get?

See above regarding the 1030 and monitors. ^_^

28. What did you want and not get?

I rather want a cheap slider-based mixing board - analogue - with a minimum of six microphone/XLR inputs, for some experiments for, like, $40 or $50. I'd fix it, of course; I'd probably have to. But I'm okay with that. I've been watching Craigslist et all and have come close a couple of times, but not quite there.

29. What was your favourite film this year?

Honestly, Into the Spider-Verse. Christ that was good.

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

Sushi dinner, and I legit don't know. I also legit don't know my actual birthday. I use one, but it's questionable. Long story, don't want to tell it.

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Two deaths, not just the one.

Maybe three.

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2018?

I wore a pair of blue jeans to book club one night and everyone fruck out because "...I didn't even know you owned blue jeans." So, apparently, somewhat sharper than previous years?

33. What kept you sane?


34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Gail Godot.

35. What political issue stirred you the most?

Same old same old, for me, honestly.

36. Who did you miss?

Mostly, Genji. Fuck, that squirrelly little ninja can be hard to hit. Unless he's stupid and charges me directly.

37. Who was the best new person you met?

[personal profile] seaborn, who is mostly on tumblr and discord, but has an account here and might see this.

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2018:


39. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?

Oh, I hate telephones. Um... probably some repair service, if anything.

40. Quote a song that sums up your year:


41. What was your favourite moment of the year?


Okay, so. Overwatch. Competitive. Defence. Hanamura. Point one. I'm coming back from spawn. Enemy team hits some ult or other as I'm on my way back, kills everyone else on my team, and they've got five players standing, including in her mech.

I hit the point, I pop out of her mech in two shots, and she flees. The other four I take down in six shots, alone, as Widowmaker. When we win, and that bit is playing back as Play of the Game, our Reinhardt, who had been... skeptical... about me being Widowmaker... just kind of breathes, on comms:



(Second place: killing five of six enemy team on offence at Temple of Anubis, taking the point, and waving hello to the rest of my team as they finally show up. That one, I have video.)

42. What was your least favourite moment of the year?

Did you see 2018? Did you see it?

I don't know if it was a 'moment' but fuck, the fires, and the smoke. So bad.

43. Where were you when 2018 started?

Eh, just hanging out at home.

44. Who were you with?

[personal profile] annathepiper and our housemate Paul and friend Jenny. I think that's all.

45. Where will you be when 2018 ends?

Dunno yet? Might go out.

46. Who will you be with when 2018 ends?

Depends upon whether I go out. Not bringing anyone over, Anna's got a cold and we don't need to share it.

47. What was your favourite month of 2018?

Hard to say. Maybe the first charge through what became Of Gods and Monsters. That was pretty amazing.

48. Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2018?

Nah. Less than usual, if anything.

49. Did you do a lot of drugs in 2018?

I don't in general. I'm anti-prohibition, but it's really not my thing.

50. What are your plans for 2019?

I think you mean 20biteen, don't you?
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Leave a word, any word, in the comments below, and I will tell you a fact about myself relating to that word.
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March 10 - What’s your favorite season? Winter, mostly. I love snow, and I'm super sensitive to heat (in a bad way) so yeah - just keep it cold. (Daily meme, for my own re-use!)
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I forgot this yesterday!

January 24 - What is your favorite movie?
Proooooooooobably Spirited Away. I love that film in ways I don't have words for. Due to reasons, I have been looking at Bond films lately, and my favourite of those is Goldfinger.

January 25 - What is your favorite TV show?
Revolutionary Girl Utena, maybe? The Legend of Korra, maybe. Two that made a big big difference for me, because representation fucking well matters, and Korrasami is canon.

Some days, I still can't believe it.
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(From here, as before)

January 23 - What is your favorite book?

do i have a favourite book? i'm... i don't know!


i think i'll change the question a little. the book i'm most glad i read so far in book club is Capital, volume 1, marx. it's nice to have finally ground my way through that. (also about half of volume 2 and a bit of volume 3. volume 2 is pointless unless recursive cycles are a new concept in your life in which case it's probably revelatory? but without that... skip it.) i even learned that marx had a better grasp on labour-time than most marxists i've read, who generally leave that latter part off when it's so completely critical to the whole damn thing. (i have even bigger issues with his theory of value after reading it in depth now, though. but i also think that whole theory of value as some sort of intrinsic thing is chasing ghosts, so i have problems with everyone's theories of value.)

the book i've enjoyed most so far is emily wilson's new translation of the odyssey, which is so far fantastic and brilliant and very much unlike other translations and great. also? a fucking page-turner. which is why it's great. this is a crazy epic story for reasons and her explicit decisions not to do things like fake old-style english language and keep it in scansion (iambic pentameter in this case) and the same number of lines(!) as homer are all working beautifully.

ancient greece was so fucking weird you guys. so weird. and with all that artificial crap out of the way it really comes through. holy hell it does.

so, yeah. books!
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January 22 - Do you have any siblings? Tell us about them.

Whelp, don't know my biological family (whoever they might be), so that's a non-starter. I guess I'll try another one from the earlier days that I didn't do.

January 3 - Are you a part of any fandoms? What do you do in them?

The Overwatch thing is pretty clear, I think? (。•̀ᴗ-)✧

But I've also been in other fandoms in the past. I did a lot of Elfquest role-playing in the 90s and made my own sonic screwdriver (the second doctor's, which you can't buy 'cause they don't sell it) in the 2000s and also was pretty seriously into Battlestar Galactica during that show's run, and I have a long history of involvement with anime, particularly Shōjo Kakumei Utena (GOSH WONDER WHY) and Cardcaptor Sakura and others. I was pretty surprised to discover just lately that the ADP are still meeting on UW campus. In the same room. At the same time. It's been a while but they're still going. Wow.
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From here. Hey, maybe I'll start using this for more than a fanfic blog, eh?

January 21 - Are you naturally messy or organized?

Organised. But I've been messier lately. I'm not sure why, but I don't mind it, really.

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I was tagged by apeacebone on tumblr for this.

Current job?

Musician. I have a small recording studio. I also manage some commercial properties.

Dream job?

I have no idea. I do want to be seriously good at Overwatch though so... pro gamer?

talon sniper? or possibly a particular talon sniper's enemy/girlfriend. is that a job? it should be. XD

What are you talented at?

I learn processes and systems very quickly.

What is a big goal you are working towards, or have already achieved?

IBM no longer dictates computer system design and use. Email exists and works for everybody across all platforms and everyone uses the internet. You're welcome, I guess.

What is your aesthetic?


Do you collect anything?


What is a topic you’re always up to talk about?

Honestly, at the moment? Overwatch. As if you couldn't tell. XD

What’s a pet peeve of yours?

I don't have time or emotional space for pet peeves anymore.

Good advice to give?

Have a backup plan. Have two.

Three favourite songs?

Seriously? fffft. Like I can narrow that down. I'll pick a few I've liked for a long time though.

  1. coloris - she
  2. Listen Up - bis
  3. Less Talk More Rokk - Freezepop

I'm not gonna tag anybody but whoever thinks it might be fun should do it.

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Grabbed from [personal profile] ckd who got it from other people.

Tattoos: None
Surgeries: Lots. Four on eyes alone.
Broken bones: Yes
Shot a gun: Yes
Quit a job: Yes
Flown on a plane: Yes, including little seaplanes.
100+miles in car: lol touring musician yes
Gone zip lining: No
Watched someone give birth: No
Watched someone dying: No
Ridden in an ambulance: Yes
Been to Canada: HAHAHAHAHAHA Yes
... to Europe: Only Scotland, but yes.
... to Washington D.C: Yes
... to Florida: Yes
... to Colorado: ...Not really. Only in layovers.
... to Mexico: Nope
... to Las Vegas: Yes
Sang karaoke: Yes
Had a pet: Yes
Been downhill skiing: Yes
Gone snowboarding: No, honestly, what even is that no.
Ability to read music: Sort of. I can piece my way through it slowly. Mostly it's an ocean of dots and lines.
Rode a motorcycle: Yes
Rode a horse: Yes
Stayed in a hospital: Yes
Driven a stick shift: Yes
Ride in Police Car: No
Driven a Boat: Yes (Sailboat)
Eaten Escargot: No
Seen a UFO: No
Been on a Cruise: No
Run out of Gas: Yes, in grad school, while at an ATM to pull out enough money to buy a couple more gallons of gas.
Eat Sushi: Yes
Seen a Ghost: No
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I am a video game character, and I have died. What do you find if you loot the body?

oh why not

Sep. 24th, 2015 10:51 pm
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A- Age: File under "questions which should not be difficult." I honestly don't know.
B- Biggest Fear: Bees, in the trivial sense. Goddamn.
C- Current Time: 22:52 PDT
D- Drink you last had: tea, hot, tippy assam black.
E- Easiest Person to Talk to: Oh, [personal profile] annathepiper.
F- Favorite Song: Just one? Fffft. I am currently listening to Needlemau5 (Sonic 3 Ending Theme) | bLiNd, RoBKTA
G- Ghosts, are they real: In the Scooby Doo sense? Can't say I've ever met one. Thematically? Oh yeah.
H- Hometown: Seattle, modulo I don't know where I was born. I think of myself as from the U. District.
I- In love with: [personal profile] annathepiper
J- Jealous of: Too many musicians.
K- Killed Someone? Only their prospects, darling.
L- Last time you cried?: A few weeks ago.
M- Middle Name: The (Solarbird the Lightbringer)
N- Number of Siblings: File under "questions which should not be difficult." I honestly don't know.
O- One Wish: Wings that work.
P- Person who you last called: Doctor's office, to reschedule, because President Xi has been in town.
Q- Question you're always asked: "Where's that from?"
R- Reason to smile: See F, above.
S- Song last sung: "Anarchy Now" - I was rehearsing earlier. No, wait, an unfinished song, so part of it, called "We're Not Friends." Despite the title, it's super upbeat.
T- Time you woke up: 8:30, for an appointment that got cancelled, see again, President Xi.
U- Underwear Colour: At the moment, white. That's kind of atypical, but hey.
V- Vacation Destination: I go around on this, but tonight, I'm thinking Edo, Japan.
W- Worst Habit: Dwelling on things. It's a side-effect of the PTSD anxiety.
X- X-Rays you've had: Most of my upper body, certainly, mostly after the car hit-and-run.
Y- Your favorite food: oh jeez. About 3/4 of a properly qualified sushi bar. Sure, we can start there.
Z- Zodiac Sign: File under "questions which should not be difficult," subcategory, "and that I don't care about, because astrology is stupid." The most likely candidates are Horse and Tiger, with Rat being a relevant thematic candidate because reasons.
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I was tagged on Livejournal in a locked post for this one; she asked me to come up with 6 things about myself, not generally-known (the actual number was chosen by her, and could have been anything between 6 and 25).

  1. I hate artificial orange flavour. Hate it. Actual oranges are fine, chocolate flavoured with orange oil is okay. Everything else is terrible and awful and no.
  2. I did AI research back in ye daye, in sentence parsing and sentence generation. It wasn't published - I didn't try - and some of it has been being recreated by Google only in the last couple of years. I find that kind of hilarious, and maybe sad. But the actually amusing part is that it was being done in FORTRAN IV, a language which lacked strings of any kind.
  3. Relatedly, I've written basic string handing libraries. Several times, actually. Also in FORTRAN.
  4. It's fairly well known amongst friends that I don't remember childhood. But I've had these nightmares - as an adult! - of the Scary Butterfly in the Television. I didn't know what it was until a couple of years ago when I fell down a Wikipedia well. It was the CBC Butterfly logo from when they first went colour. Apparently, that thing freaked Tiny Me right the hell out. Did. Not. Want.
  5. Amongst my circle of friends, I'm the one who found World War Z and said "check this out, it looks amazing" and everybody read it and thought it was awesome. Except for me. I got busy and never read it. It's still on my to-read pile.
  6. I forgot a sixth thing when I posted this the first time.

Comment if you want a number!


Jun. 16th, 2015 07:46 pm
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What Villain Are You Like When You're Angry?

The Wicked Witch of the West.

It would not be wise to look down on the woman who strategically manipulated countless flying monkey minions, wolves, vicious bees and ruled her land with quite the magically iron fist.

She was west SIIIIDE before it even WAS a west side! You've chosen a path of manipulation, magic, and mayhem. As a villain you're the face of evil, but you're loyal to those important to you and have wicked ways of making the unlucky fellows who cross your path suffer! The three Ms that take the Wicked Witch of the West to the next level of villain and quite the distance beyond.

That being said, I do NOT want to meet you in a dark alley on a bad day. Oh, before I go, watch out for Dorothy, she's coming… and an umbrella wouldn’t hurt you.
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...but I can. \n/

Which AbFab character are you?


You're that impossibly cool person that others secretly look to for inspiration. You have the coolest style, the coolest expressions, the coolest friends. Basically things are cool if you say they that they are. Did I mention you're cool?

battle cry

Mar. 13th, 2015 03:32 pm
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Your last text message is now your army's new battle cry. What will your followers be shouting?
"what their servers all fell down?"

in all lower-case letters, of course. that seems to be important. battle-cries in whisper form.
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I got tagged on the 15 Films challenge. Consider yourself tagged, or don’t – I’m not fond of that part, and besides, this goes a zillion places.

But here, my top 15 favourite/personally influential films of all time – don’t consider these in order, or maybe do, if you want. I don’t. Also, I’m leaving out films I love in the ironic sense – the works of Ed Wood, Jr, the original Gamera trilogy, Robot Monster, Radar Secret Service, and so on.

1) Casablanca. How can it not be? It is a perfect film.

2) Brazil. Let’s take 1984 and h͖͓̙ạ̢̠͈̓ͪ͊l̏̏̋ͭ̊҉͕͙̮l̰̳̬̲̩̫͕̉u͔ͤ̒͒c̼̻̖͌̌ͪͅi͍̣͉̰̲̝͉͂͗̕ṋ͔̇͂ͫ̈͒̒̆͞o̰̺̲̟̭̺̬g͓̜̯̗̦̜ͅe͒҉n̠̫̦͕̝ͭͭ͘ṡ̩̺̒ͪ̂͊̀ͅ and see what happens. Answer: brilliance.

3) Spirited Away (千と千尋の神隠し). Transcendent in every way. For years, I was emotionally ready to dump everything and go work at Yubaba’s bath house if the opportunity arose. Magic lessons required, of course.

4) The Manchurian Candidate (1961). I would argue possibly the best cold war film, only matched by Doctor Strangelove. So paranoid, so relentless, so sad. Angela Lansbury is brilliant, perfect evil. I’d like to see her go up against Davros in Doctor Who. (Spoiler: she’d destroy him.)

5) O Brother Where Art Thou? If you don’t feel the gods intervening in the radio station, you aren’t reachable.

6) The Lord of the Rings (Peter Jackson trilogy), because how do you even realise this? And yet, they did. Astounding.

7) Pacific Rim, because I have never walked out of a theatre in a daze like that before, with my brain still going, what the fuck did I just see and can I see it again?!

8) On the Beach, probably the third- or fourth-best cold war film. (See also the last great one: Threads (1984).) Why this and Manchurian Candidate and not Doctor Strangelove? To be honest, I can’t quite tell you why. Strangelove is fantastic. But I had the unfortunate confluence of seeing that and reading Fail Safe at about the same time, and the mix is… hilarious? But not intentionally. And why not Threads? Different era, different world, I guess. I dunno.

9) Princess Mononoke (もののけ姫). I will possibly never watch this film again, because the first time destroyed me. I think… this is where I learned to love a film about losing.

10) The Adventures of Buckaroo Banzai Across the Eighth Dimension. Welcome to my sense of humour. Population: me.

11) Captain Blood (1935). Welcome to my sense of adventure! Population me, and a bunch of pirates. “You speak treason!” “Fluently.”

12) The Lion in Winter. Welcome to my idea about family! Population me, and all my horrible memories. Made beautiful by tremendous acting and actual razor wit. And occasionally, actual razors. Ah, family.

13) The Monolith Monsters. If an alien invasion film could be a procedural, this would be it. A minor film, but Science! and Rationality!

14) The Maltese Falcon (1941, the one with Bogie, the one you know about). The perfect detective film. Often overlooked; Elisha Cook Jr. as Wilmer, the gunsel. A small part, but watch him barely control – barely control – his crazy rage. There’s one point in particular where he is so angry he can barely move. It’s great.

15) Lilo and Stitch. A film I did not expect out of Disney, a love song to Hawai’i, funny, smart, poignant.

That’s my list right now. It’d probably have different items on it if someone asked again later. What’s yours?

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meme time!

Aug. 4th, 2014 08:17 am
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Pick up the book nearest to you and turn to page 45. The first sentence explains your love life.


"Ryn and I collaborated on this illustration of Korra chasing some triad members through the city."

...I can kinda see that.

write like

Jun. 17th, 2013 06:45 pm
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I write like...
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Honestly, why would you want to?

It’s all Day Jobbe crap today, so little time to talk about anything. But I have experimental evidence now: medium-distance micing and overhead micing both can work in this room. Rawk. I also got some drum work in on the soundtrack album, and started working up some mandolin as well. This weekend: Angry Birds Handegg, more recording with Leannan Sidhe, plus other things I won’t talk about, because…

…of this short animated video. It comes from and includes a key point from a Derek Sivers TED talk. (Full talk here.) He talks about yet another bit of primate psychology that backfires and stops you from getting things done; being aware helps.

Also for your enjoyment: a Raspberry PI supercomputer in a Lego cabinet, and some distinctly weird Death Ghosts of Europe.

Finally, I learned something this week:

Looks like the vast lonesome shapes are seeping down from dark stars;
better set up more baffles

The last one is totally real. It’s called “rifle.” As in, get a, and use it on anybody wanting to set up a shotgun mic.

All for now; have fun this weekend. Ja ne!

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