briefly music, then whining

[solarbird]

Why can't I write music faster? It's frustrating. I've got this great intro to some song and it just kind of stops there. I know what kind of thing I want to happen next but it's not well defined and it's sitting out there, hiding behind a curtain and mocking me.

Also, I'm worried now about my flutes being infected with something, just because every time I've started to get better I've started practicing flute again and gotten sick again. So now I'm all wigging out on 1) okay, I've been feeling better, am I going to get something else now? (If you're wondering, I've never had anything like this happen in my life, and I've never been sick anything like this long, and it's really getting to me; I normally miss all the winter bugs entirely), and 2) have I infected my flutes somehow? Is stuff growing in them?

So I scrubbed them out on Sunday in ways pretty not good for bamboo - and then hit them with rubbing alcohol for good measure. This was after I'd been on antibiotics for over 48 hours again, so I should've been clean. And I started playing them again a little on Sunday and a little on Monday, and after feeling pretty okay Sunday and Monday, today the side of my mouth kinda hurts (the left side, towards the back, like my gums are irritated) and tonight my throat complains a little when I swallow. But I've had these flutes before when I've been sick and nothing like this has happened, plus, c'mon, water, detergent, alcohol. They should be clean.

But regardless, what the fuck? I've been sick enough to really feel it most days since Norwescon, which is to say, the Thursday before Easter, which would've been March 20th. It's May 6th. What is this bullshit?!

I should have antibiotic in my system for another five days, btw. So says the doctor. Which won't help if I get to have another round of Some Dumbass Viral Thing. Which this will of course be.

Or, hopefully, I'll wake up tomorrow and be fine. Anna's finally feeling pretty normal, and she got this chain-reaction clusterfuck three weeks before I did.

Your Score: Romeo & Juliet

You scored 48% = Tragic, 37% = Comic, 43% = Romantic, 26% = Historic

You are the Tragedy of Romeo and Juliet. Perhaps one of Shakespeare's most memorable works, Romeo and Juliet tells the story of two star-crossed lovers of warring families and their untimely deaths in each other's arms. What your score tells us about you is that you are most likely a romantic person who is willing to go to extremes for the ones you love. For this, your family and friends love and respect you (even if they may tease you from time to time). While you may be a bit of a fickle-heart, you are also a spontaneous and adventurous person with a big heart and a lot of love to give. We certainly love you, and we're sure that a lot of other people do too!

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Comments

[emrecom.livejournal.com]

Songwriting suggestions:

Does what you have use short notes? Write something with one more chord change using long notes.

Modulate to the fifth. If what you're writing is in E, write something else in B. Attach and segue as needed.

Locate what I call a 'pause' chord, where you can sort of sit for a couple bars and noodle your way onward. A favorite of all songwriters is a G-to-F sort of thing. Or an E to C. That sort of thing. After sitting on your F or C or whatever, pause and think about the emotional essence of the what you have.

Play what you have and then modulate to something that seems ridiculous. Like, if you're in E major, go to C minor. Start singing/playing *something*, anything.

The idea of all this is to stop your brain from doing anything, because in these sort of things, a brain is largely useless.

Or buy a copy of Eno's Oblique Strategies for more of this sort of thing on a more absract register.

[angharads-house.livejournal.com]

suggestion re what's living in your flute over at my LJ.

(and whatever you had, it likely is not what I have caught since the weekend. ^_^)