MWAH-HA-HA

[solarbird]

WOOHOO P.T. IS NOW ONCE A DAY! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT! Admittedly, it's experimental, and I might have to go back to twice, but for now, it's onesies. W0000T!

^_^ This is me being happy ^_^

So today, having a lot more time free, I worked in the studio and did actual structured singing practice. I haven't done that last one in weeks, and then before that, it was weeks again. I've mostly just been singing in the shower or the car, and honestly, that doesn't do it, or anything like it.

But.

I've been trying to figure out some stuff that's been hurting my tone for a long time, and both Anna and Rebecca think I've got it right. I need more practice, but, um, it's pretty fuckin' cool. I knew it sounded richer to me in my head, but that necessarily doesn't translate to the outside world. But in this case, I think I've got it. Or at least part of it. W000000T!

Yay yay yay yay yay! ^_^

Studio work mostly consisted of assembling parts of a mostly-otherwise-complete sculpture. I did have a little bit of art in stuff today, though - I hadn't entirely figured out how to handle a bit of connector stuff (artistically, not structurally), and now I have, So, rah. Go me. ^_^

I need to stop treating art and singing as "fun things, and as such, ranked last" and need to start treating them as "important things, one of which may legitimately be a career, ranked high." But it's difficult for me to do that.

I also bought a new drawbook and checked out the clearance tables at the University Bookstore. Didn't buy anything, though - I was good. (But I really wanted the Hello Kitty addressbook. I'm a sad person, sometimes, I really am. -_^; )

Time to make dinner!

Comments

[poetry-lady.livejournal.com]

Much woo and hoo for you!!! And Hello Kitty rocks! There is nothing sad about wanting all things Hello Kitty. Even the naughty stuff.

[solarbird]

Oh, I totally want the naughty stuff. ^_^

[quen-elf.livejournal.com]

Hello Kitty does rock but I still think Miffy is better :) Though, afaik you can't get any (legally licensed) naughty Miffy stuff.

[cafiorello.livejournal.com]

Woo-hoo!

You know, you're *supposed* to enjoy your important stuff. You need to disconnect the important=unpleasant equation in your head.

You deserve to enjoy yourself...just because!

I prefer Batz-Maru, myself. ;)

Cathy

[solarbird]

You know, you're *supposed* to enjoy your important stuff. You need to disconnect the important=unpleasant equation in your head.
I do worry that's what's going on, but that's not quite how I parse it. It's more... things I like can't be important. I kind of suspect that this does cause some reaction the other way - if it's important, it must be something I can't enjoy, and I must start to dislike it even if I originally didn't - but I don't think that's the fundamental problem. I think the fundamental problem is, "If I like it, it's play, and therefore doesn't matter / is not important." And accordingly, it gets shoved downqueue pretty easily.

Putting as, "you're *supposed* to enjoy your important stuff" doesn't really work, because I really don't like working on the house; I dislike it quite a bit, now that I've been forcing myself to work on it so much for so long. And this means (when faced with assertions like that) that I'm wrong for not enjoying it, because it's important; it's my fault that I don't like it and I should learn to do so.

I do / can start to gather strong dislike for things I have to do. But it's not something that happens all the time.

[cafiorello.livejournal.com]

Oh, I didn't mean you have to like everything you have to do. But your "important stuff", like your music and art, *that* you're supposed to like. What's important to you, what you value, what you'd like to do with your life--that should be enjoyable. If you like it, that *doesn't* mean it's not important. It is.
Cathy