収束ゾーンでのライフ: Life in the Convergence Zone

Oh, that's nice to hear someone else who genuinely dislikes Christmas, to know that I'm not the only one. Everyone else seems to be either an enthusiast or an apologist who tries to turn Christmas into something else when I just want it out of my life.

I keep getting pulled in by family guilt each year, much as I just want to spend that day hiding. The couple of years where I was able to spend Christmas alone (and thus not celebrate it) are the happiest ones I remember.

It's just a pile of stress, and trying to come up with presents I can't afford for people who I don't feel like I know anymore and having to deal with the family members I can avoid during the rest of the year.

I don't have the childhood memories to help out either, mostly just memories of high hopes and disappointment, and everything was supposed to be all magical and wonderful, but it was just like any other time except there were fir needles all over the place and lots of things I'd break if I played like usual.

Having been a Baker for the last few Christmases certainly hasn't helped. Only working Retail comes to mind as a worse job to have during that time. Again, Pile o' Stress, being overworked, overstressed, underrested, constantly subjected to the same terrible music*, and surrounded by people who keep telling me I should be having a wonderful time.

I do like the lights, and some of the music, and I would love this time of year if it weren't loaded with Christmas, the Weather is just what I like.

*As mentioned, I like some Christmas music, but that's not what gets played on the radio.