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All dialogue is in translation from the French.

«Good evening, Gérard. I've missed you.»

The woman all in black laid her lilies against the gravestone, as she did one day a year, every year. But this was not the customary day, or month, or for that matter, even the daytime at all.

«I know; I'm early. But I do not know what to do.»

She took out a small bottle of wine - a fillette of Chinon red, so dark, almost purple - and two particularly delicate glasses. One, she set on the gravestone. The other, she kept.

«I've got into bad situations before, Gérard. But this one... I'm in real trouble now.»

She poured wine for the two of them, swirling the glasses gently. A little for herself, more for Gérard, and then, on second thought, more for herself after all.

«I love her, Gérard. I thought I had turned everything down so low and far from myself that I would not see it again after you, my dearest. But...»

The woman closed her eyes, sipped her wine, and bit her lower lip, before continuing.

«I love her. As I loved you.»

She opened her eyes.

«To be honest with myself, I was almost ready for that. But then, when I put her in your place, in my memory...»

She drank the rest of her glass of wine, all of it, at once, like someone already a little too drunk, red invisible on her blue lips. To anyone looking on, she would seem a exquisitely graceful lout; to herself, she felt she could barely hold onto the glass's stem at all.

«...I do not think I could pull the trigger this time, Gérard.»

She threw her glass away, violently, the fragile crystal smashing into a thousand pieces against nearby stones. Then, she reached out, poured the contents of Gérard's glass onto his grave, and carefully put his glass back down.

«I'm so, so sorry. I did not think it was possible... but...»

A heavy breath.

«I think I love her more than I loved you.»

Water, from her eyes, for the first time in many years.

«I did not imagine that was possible. And yet I think... I think, with her... I could not do it, no matter the cost.»

She drained the dregs of the wine directly from the bottle, and, rather than destroying it, knelt down and placed it gently on her husband's grave, the water in her eyes pooling, falling, tears.

«Help me figure this out, Gérard. I don't know what to do, and I'm so afraid, afraid that this time...»

«...I would let the world burn.»

Date: 2017-05-10 02:15 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] absynthe
I enjoy reading your work. I have never played Overwatch, am only vaguely aware of the characters and storyline - A mutant genius gorilla (yawn) one person with autism (apparently being written well), and at least one LGBTQ person (also, aparently being written well).
So, while i have sympathies to the source material, I don't really know it, per se. But your writing is engaging and interesting regardless.
I edit for a couple of published authors, and I encourage you to pursue your writing.

Re: there are a lot of chracters.

Date: 2017-05-10 04:48 am (UTC)
ossobuco: Zarya's hands, from Overwatch (zarya hands)
From: [personal profile] ossobuco
I didn't know that Symmetra was autistic! I love it, that's so exciting.

Also re: this piece (and the whole idea, continually), /steeples fingers, leans in creepily

Re: there are a lot of chracters.

Date: 2017-05-10 05:22 am (UTC)
ossobuco: Legion from Mass Effect 2 (Default)
From: [personal profile] ossobuco
Same, I'm not on the spectrum that I'm aware of, but after finally breaking up with Some Games with Very Extremely Bad representation of neurodivergence of all sorts (among other things), I'm still in this stage where I'm like PRAISE BE TO MY NEW VIDEO GAME OVERLORDS whenever Blizzard gets anything right. And good representation of people with autism/on the spectrum seems like one of the hardest things to find out of a very long list, so it's especially cool and unexpected.

Re: also

Date: 2017-05-10 03:47 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] absynthe
Unsurprisingly, one of my authors was a technical writer for years before she committed to fiction full-time. She had the same doubts as you as to her abilities, and while I think that's inherent in anyone who produces art, it seems amplified if one has a tech background. Where art has flow and interpretation, technical fields have right and wrong. Seeing your work in the light of one field after working in the other for years is difficult. TLDR: I think you may be short-changing yourself, you write sympathetic characters.

To clarify my yawn at Winston, he seems an interesting character,and probably well-written, given the apparent quality of the other characters. But making a verb, verb, noun non-human character in an SF setting isn't much of a challenge, imho. Creating a character who could be yourself, your friend, relative, associate, or lover right now, and then putting them believably into a fantastical scenario is more challenging. It seems like a weird cognitive reversal of the uncanny valley, in that we can sympathize with a genius gorilla who acts the least bit human, but will scrutinize and shred a character with autism for being unreal. I'm still not sure whether that's from a desire to see them portrayed authentically (I hope), or a discomfort at having someone who is 'other' in the mix. (I fear)
Tracer being the literal face of the game is awesome, I just spent a minute looking into the game and canon, and I have to say I'm pretty hopeful here. These wins accumulate until for some future generation it's just part of the background fabric of life.

Date: 2017-05-10 09:01 pm (UTC)
annathepiper: (Default)
From: [personal profile] annathepiper
Hi, I'm [personal profile] solarbird's wife, and we're both musicians and writers.

But I'm the one who's a writer first and a musician second, while Dara is a musician first and a writer second. But still it pleases me she's writing Overwatch fic. <3

Date: 2017-05-11 02:40 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] absynthe
I imagine the after-dinner dialogue at your house is both lively and interesting.
I am an engineer by trade but I tend to gravitate toward artists - my s.o. is a clothing designer - as you folks tend to have the perspective I lack, and which I find most interesting.

Is there somewhere I could find your writings?

Date: 2017-05-11 02:42 am (UTC)
annathepiper: (Default)
From: [personal profile] annathepiper
We are a very creative household, it's true. :)

Dara and I both have a history of computer engineering; I'm still in software as my day job. So we've got at least that form of engineering. But we do rather prefer the arts, even if software testing helps me actually afford to write stuff.

I have five released novels available in print and ebook and you can find out about 'em on

Date: 2017-05-11 03:15 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] absynthe
I am a heretic engineer, I firmly believe that a good engineer is 90% ability and 10% training. I've met an innumerable amount of good mathematicians who don't know which end of the screwdriver to stick in their eye, yet think of themselves as engineers.
In my experience, the better engineers / designers came to it later, through art, or sculpture, or machinging, or being insatiably curious about how things work.

Something that drew me to Dara's blog is her (please correct me if tht's the wrong pronoun) approach to problem solving. Way more omnivorous thinker than classicaly trained problem solver.

Thank you for the link, I'm off to read, I always love finding a new author!

Date: 2017-05-11 04:27 am (UTC)
annathepiper: (Default)
From: [personal profile] annathepiper
That is the correct pronoun. And yeah. The brain on that girl is one of the reasons I was drawn to her too. :D

Thanks much!

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